The year Helen entered 4th grade, her mother
decided the best way to soften her rebellious and sullen child was to make her
join the local Junior Girl Scout troupe. Having read a pamphlet about it from
the library, she was sold on the laws of “A Girl Scout obeys rules” and “A Girl
Scout is cheerful.” Helen suffered through the meetings in her scratchy
uniform, humming through the songs and trying to become invisible. Soon it was
cookie-selling season and everyone was in a frenzy to sell the most boxes to
win the coveted prize of a Miami Miss BMX bike.
Helen allowed herself to be dragged door to door by her
mother, knocking softly and mumbling a “Excuse me, Ma’am would you like to buy
some Girl Scout cookies,” in a small voice, eyes downcast. Her mother usually
mouthed the request again, pointing at the order form and shrugging as if to
say, “What can I do with this one?”
When one woman answered the door, Helen turned to flee,
smacking right into her mother whose face turned bright red. It was none other
than Mrs. M, looming taller and meaner close up. Having never seen the front of
her house, Helen didn’t realise where she was. When Mrs. M invited them in,
Helen thought she sounded a bit like Mary Poppins and the Wicked Witch mixed
together.
As they sat at a table in a sunny room, Helen felt sure they
would never be allowed to escape. Something was stabbing in her stomach trying
to get out and a lump was forming in her throat.
“These are scones dear, what you probably call a biscuit.
Try it with some blackberry jam. I made it myself.” Her mother tore open the
lopsided round bread and spread some jam on it and smiled tightly as she gave
it to her. Her look told Helen to eat or else. Helen took a bite, forcing the
sweet, bready bite down past the lump and found that it was much better than the
toast and grape jelly she was used to.
Mrs. M told her mom that her husband had brought the vines
all the way from a tiny village south of Birmingham in England, which confused
Helen as she thought villages were places like she saw in National Geographic
where women didn’t wear any shirts. She wondered if Mrs. M took off her
cardigan and flowered blouse when no one was around. When Helen’s mother asked,
“What does your husband do?” Mrs. M voice got a bit shaky and she said he died
of cancer a few years ago. She looked at Helen for a long time before adding,
“I like to think he’s out there watching over the roses and berries for me.”
A few weeks later it was time to make the cookie deliveries.
The money had long ago been turned over and the bicycle awarded to Christy
Malone, who everyone called “a ray of sunshine” and “a lovely young lady”.
Helen’s mom decided to wait in the car, hoping that Helen might be forced to
have more confidence when dealing with her customers. Luckily, she wasn’t there
to witness the “Here” as she thrust boxes into hands, before turning and
running down the porch steps.
At Mrs. M’s house, as Helen turned to escape, the woman told
her to “wait right there” and she came back, holding a bag, eyes blazing above
a tight smile.
“I made this jar especially for you, Dear. You needn’t share
it with anybody. All right?”
Skin burning with adrenaline and heart racing, Helen tried
to say, “Ok” but nothing came out. She’d had the same sensation in a nightmare
where someone was chasing her and she couldn’t scream. She tried several times
to open the car door before scrambling inside. She wouldn’t move, so her mother
delivered the rest of the cookies.
The next morning when she came downstairs, a piece of toast
was waiting for her.
“I don’t want it!”
“What’s the matter with you? You eat toast every day.”
“What’s the purple stuff?”
“Jam. From Mrs. McGuire. Somehow it ended up in the trash,
but we’re not going to waste it.”
“No! It’s poison!”
“Don’t be ridiculous. You’re not going anywhere until you
eat that toast.”
Several hours later, Helen had a realisation. She’d been a
brat and a troublemaker her entire life. She’d tried to control herself but the
bad kid always won. Bad kids deserve punishment and this was hers.
Sighing with profound regret and remorse, she lifted the
toast to her lips and took a bite.
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